I've been keeping a lot of entries private/just me, but...
BUT OH HELL WITH IT. Just unwatch me if you find my blogging annoying, I don't mind. If I can't be myself online, then when the fuck can I be myself? Online, you can hold a mask to your face or unveil to however you want-and it doesn't matter. Because the internet is serious business like that. =D (And no worries: I'll be keeping those heavy emotional entries to myself since obviously people aren't ready for them yet. XD)
OKAY. Now that I have that off:
Some thoughts I've been thinking lately that might sound uber narcissistic- If I tried, I could actually be attractive. -SHOT TO DEATH BY BAMBI'S MOTHER- It's just never really hit me-I mean, I enjoy dressing up and looking good on special occasions, but stuff like normal everyday and being attractive? Iunno. It's more of something like Jessica-she's always dressed so attractive: taking time to do her hair, makeup, choosing clothes- whereas I'm one of those.. "okay. That's the first thing I see, so that's what I'm wearing."
It hit me when I was looking through photos like the one I just posted above and thought: "Holy shit. I wonder if it's just the dim lighting, but did I ever look that cute?" So during this Hurricane Ike vacation, I'm going to try and dress cute around the house. I'm still recovering from... whatever the illness, but I'mma try! As an experiment-everyday, I'm going to try being.. Oh God. Fashionable. XDD
If by the end of the week I like the change (and the effort doesn't kill me dead), I might just.. make myself a dress up doll for myself. -SHOT- I've always had a friend or someone that I got to dress up in clothes in so many ways, but lately I've been an aloof fag, so I better start relying myself for getting that dose of: hey, I-might-know-fashion-a-little-bit.
I have the sudden desire to go out and just.. dance my butt off. XD Seriously. Anybody up for some sporadic dancing of doom? :'DD I loved hanging out at Linda's house along with Priya, and just doing.. what girls do. It was my first time (seriously!) doing such.. activities! I'm used to being engrossed into my anime/manga/video games-ness that I've never really gotten into the whole dorking out with friends such as dancing like we don't care, driving out to eat, talking about silly stuff, and NOT doing anime/manga/video games related things. God. This is going to be such a fun year~!